The next exodus to extermination or determination.Which should be choosen?(kishern manickam)

There I was,
Lying,
While flying,
To the path that I will descend,
Leaving away memories that must ascend,
Everything that must be apprehended,
Shall never be appreciated,
Dried and fried faces,
Of other aces,
Acing everything,
Like smooth icing,
The bed of roses,
Are watered by filthy hoses,
Causing a tilt,
A turmoil of blackish liquid,
More putrid than brandy,
The roses are rusty like smugglers while turning pale,
No better than crusty jugglers and burning ale,
Feels like thieving kids with dog claws,
No better than hefting deeds with hog jaws,
There leaving away everything,
Embarking on a exodus like hell,
Which there is nothing to tell,
Either i exterminate myself,
Or determinate myself,
Life is everlasting pain,
Which will never end at all,